Fear

God sent me a message. Yes, He sent me a message.

I am coming to the crossroads and He is standing with His arms wide open, waiting for me.

I chose Him and He chose me, but the waves of fear are distracting me. My eyes are not looking straight into His.

Just like Peter:

24 Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. 25 About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!”
27 But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!”
28 Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”
29 “Yes, come,” Jesus said.
So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.
31 Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”


I am standing on the edge of the boat and you want me to step out into You. I love You so much, but I am distracted by fear. Lord Jesus, I just want to step out there into You. I see You holding out your arms like the ultimate LifeSaver that You are and the waves of fear come. I know as soon as I step out of the boat, there is no turning back. And I know that You will not let me drown, that You will always reach out and grab me. Fear fills the space where my faith should be. Save me.

School

Go Cru!!
Tomorrow will be a week since classes started. God has gotten me off to a great start here. I feel so at home. Even though I don't know many people outside of my family group, I don't feel lonely at all. God has provided me with a few great friends that I am getting to know well.

I visited Antioch on Sunday, which was fantastic. I am going to one of their college lifegroups tonight to see what its all about. I also want to join CAB (campus activities board) so I can participate in planning all the fun stuff and of course, make new friends. The excitement of being here has not quite worn off yet!

This weekend I am going home to see my family and boyfriend and unfortunately, attend a funeral. Please keep my family in your prayers.

Hope everyone has gotten off to a great start this school year!! :)

God Bless!!