Three

I went to be advised and register for classes today.

Three years.

That's how much longer I will be in school, if all goes well of course.

I've already spent three years in college.

Can I just get an honorary degree?

Guess He never said it would be easy. He only said I'd never go alone.

My advisor, which is the one of the deans of the BSN school was quite taken aback when I said I was ok with graduating in 2010. I guess she thought that I was going to change my major right then and there. I'm not ok with three years (yet). I was in fact, a bit discouraged and disheartened. But God is ok with three years because His will is being done and not my own. If it were up to me, I'd probably settle for ASN and call it a day. But I think God is going to take this next three years to water and nurture me and see if I will turn to the Source and GROW.

To go through all of this, just to be a nurse, He must be working on a HUGE project.

I'm up for it.

Thank You for three more years in the cocoon. Thank You that You would think of me that much to mold me, shape me, nurture me, and have an incredible plan for me. :)

I love You.

In other news:

I'm going to Jamaica with the family and the one I care for in August. It will be my first time out of the country and on a plane. But I will have to miss 2 days of school within the first week. : /

So, that numbness is floating away. There is color flooding back into my cheeks again. I feel something.

Next week, I get a break from babysitting for a little while. Sleeping in will be nice. :)

I feel awkward and detached from the one I care for. It all started with my mini nervous breakdown and the dynamic just hasn't been the same. I needed the time to myself and we needed less time with each other. Now, when we do spend time together (which is a rare occurrence), it feels different and its not good different. Its...weird. I miss us. What is a girl to do? : /

Well, if someone is out there, actually reading this, pray for me. Thanks.